Review & Resolution Twenty Fourteen

♥ Hello people! Been so long, I know. So, it's the last day of 2014 today and I guess you know what I'm trying to do after reading the title. Yes, it's time for my annual routine, the review and resolution of the whole year. Long and wordy post so get ready :p

♥ I seriously have no idea how to describe how's my 2014 like. I feel like it's a year with too much sadness and tears. It's a year with too much tragedy and death. Not a good year, to me. I'm doing fine and I hope whoever that's still here, reading this, is doing more than fine too. I hope you guys had a happy and prosperous 2014. The consequences of being missing in action for too long results in being stuck in every sentence. Lol. But anyway, 2014 is the year with the most ups and downs so far. It wasn't easy. 

♥ Greatest find out of 2014 : People don't have to like you, and you DON'T have to care!

♥ School was just 'alright' too. It was my hardest year I would say. Got stuck with a bunch of people and I seriously have no idea how I survived that. Working with a bunch of NEW people isn't easy. Especially when you're NOT familiar with them, at all. Normally, it wasn't that hard to get over. Cuz previously in 2013, I encountered the same problem. I believe we all do, when we're placed in a group with new faces and new plans. We just get better and better when days pass right? But this time round, it didn't happen. It wasn't like that this time. It just got worst. I tried really hard to find the level that all of us might be able to get to. But sorry to say, there's none. It was different, it was torturous and it was hard. REALLY HARD. I just hate those times during meetings when no decisions were made. It was pointless. It was a waste of time. I was mentally and physically drained out, when it's not even halfway through the meeting. In fact, I felt really really stressed. Being in this council thing has never felt so bad, so stressed up and so sick before. It used to be fun. Well, USED TO though. We lack teamwork, we lack the 'selflessness' and we lack the 'connection'. To sum this up, some of us are not at the same level. I remember during one of our event evaluation in June after our LP event where I pointed out those points I've said earlier. But nobody actually listened, cuz they still think that the team is actually working 'quite' well. Oh well what can I expect right? And they JUST realized the problem during our last meeting in November. It took them 5 months to absorb it. Should I be impressed? Cause I am. I really am impressed, and at the same time, disappointed. That's it about the bad side. Good sides? I've learnt deeper about putting others first and the importance of teamwork and being with the right team. I'm not usually this negative, but I really feel so sick and tired of this new group that I wanted this to end so bad. In fact, I've waited for so long for this sh*t to end since this started. The last day of school never felt better, cause it marks my 'retirement' from the group and I'm definitely more excited than ever. Once our party ended, it just felt soooo goood. Like a weight being lifted up from my shoulders. And I'm not even exaggerating. It's to that extent. Okay, enough of this. Moving on~

♥ There are too much tears and sorrows, tragedies and deaths this year. First, I lost my grandma (Daddy's momma) to pancreatic cancer. It was hard to see her go. I lived with her during daytime when I was young till I was around 3. I'd wait for my parents to pick me up after working hours. She practically raised me and watched me grow. It hit me hard when Dad came home from the hospital and broke the news to us that she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. And worst, last stage. It was a shocking news to our family. There were symptoms but damn, they weren't obvious. It was just 6 months where we found out, trying to cure her and we lost her eventually.  She left us in June. It took me awhile to move on. I love her dearly, like how she loves me. It wasn't easy to accept the fact that she has already left. It was until the day of her cremation, it hit me hard that she's really really gone. I'm not hearing her voice and eating her delicious home cook foods that she cooked anymore. It was hard for everyone of us, and it was harder for my Dad and my Aunt, and even my grandpa. But I believe she's in a better place where she isn't suffering anymore. At least she isn't in pain anymore. That thought kept me going. Don't worry, we're all okay now. We're doing fine and we'll be better as days pass. To the families of the MH370, MH17, GE222 and QZ8501, I pray that all of you find comfort and peace too. I know it's not easy and very heartbreaking. But time will heal. Take heart and be blessed :) Also had a haircut. Chopped of my hair to a shorter than shoulder length ;p

♥ Other than that, I'm nothing but thankful and grateful. That I have a beautiful family and friends who'd be there for me at all cost. I'm so blessed by all these beautiful people. Doesn't matter whether you're my bestfriend, good friends or just acquaintances, I'm still thankful for being able to meet you guys. There are 7 billion people out there and yet we can meet and be friends. Friendship is just magical. Really really thankful. Just can't be thankful enough. Just being happy with whatever I have. Being alive itself is already a gift. Being able to see tomorrow's sunshine is a blessing. Can't ask for more. Thank God for such beautiful blessings. There's too much things I want to be thankful for, but this might get too wordy and boring for people who aren't interested  (hahahha)  so I'll just briefly state the main things. Thankyou for your patience :p

♥ My dearest Mama and Papa,

Both of you are the best gift in my life. I'm always proud about how awesome both of you are, cause my parents are better than other people's! HAHAHA! I just love you guys, to the max! Thank you for putting up with my temper all the since I was young till now. I know I'm not easy to deal with some times. LOL. I have so much to say but I say the things I want to say to the both of you very often so I'm gonna cut it short for this year's post. I'm just thankful for everything and the love you all always showered me with. This year was hard for us, but with the strength from each other, we made it through. We'll strive harder in 2015 :) Love you both to the moon and back ♥ I just want both of you to be happy and healthy, love each other more and more everyday. :)

♥ My dearest bestf,

It has been 9 years! It's a little shocking to me. HAHAHA cause who can stand being bullied by you for 9 years ah?! HAHAHA!  We practically watched each other grow, fall, climb back up again, fall again, climb back up again and again and again. I just can't stop being thankful for you. There are days where our opinions don't meet the point and we might have conflicts, but we have the same character that we forgive and forget easily. That is why we get along well. We don't and never will hold grudges against each other. We face problems, we solve it, we talk it out, forgive and forget. That is how we keep our friendship in shape. Thank you for being there always. Thank you for backing me up at all times. Thank you for all your encouraging and comforting words and thank you for listening to me always. Thank you for being my light when I'm in darkness. Thanks for everything you've done for me this year. Really love you so much. You're my bestfriend, my listener, my motivator, my precious and God-sent angel too, though you bully me on a regular basis hhahahaha. Okay that joke is getting old. :p  Just thankful for you and it's our 10th year milestone next year. Shocking!! I pray that you'll get better in 2015 and be healthy, happy and continue to grow in Him. Will always love you ♥

♥ My Anna Bananniee,

I believe your 2014 has been fruitful and productive. This year is crucial to your career. And I hope you managed to hit the targets that you've previously set. I hope you achieved whatever you've wanted to achieve. When you broke the news to me about you leaving Penang, I have to admit that it was hard. It was hard cuz I couldn't imagine life in Penang without you cause you're always so near to me. But to be honest, on the other hand I was really really happy for you. Cause there's a bigger platform and better opportunities out there that you can get. And you deserved all these chances given to you. Because you worked for it and you wanted it so bad.  I know how hard it is to decided whether to stay or to leave. But I'm glad you chose the latter. Cause it was obviously better for you. We still manage to keep in touch thanks to the super 'in' technology nowadays. I'm happy for you and I feel so proud of you. Whatever you do in the future, I hope you find joy and peace in it. Don't forget to trust in God for every decisions. And oh, we have so so much to catch up. SO SO MUCH! So please come back and see me soon okay? HAHAHA! Thank you for being there always. No matter how busy you are, don't forget to take good care of yourself and eat your meals regularly. No matter how busy you are, always remember to have your own time with Him. No matter how busy you are, always watch over your spiritual life always. Lastly, wish you all the best in 2015 and be blessed! Will always love you too ♥

♥ My dearest V team,

It has been a great year with you guys! Thanks for being there all the time. Good and bad times, you guys were there to cheer me on and gave me the strength to keep moving. Thanks for staying with me despite my odds. It's amazing how each and everyone of us is different in our own ways and yet we still manage to click. Till today, I'm still amazed at how close we are despite the odds. Hahaha we might be odd but we are amazinggggg okays! Hahahaha :p You guys are irreplaceable! Like how I posted the other day, we are the results of a chemical reaction that can happen only once. ONLY ONCE. :D
That feeling when you know there's always a group of people backing you up no matter what happens is just so so good. I'm always thankful that we are able to get this close and click on. It was amazing, really. I seriously have no idea how I'd survived 2014 without you guys. Other than thank you, it's still thank you. Thank you guys so much. So so much. You guys are one of the best blessings that has happened to me. Distance will be our obstacle in the future when we part and go our own ways but I believe that our bond isn't limited by just distance. Distance won't kill us. There's so much more that I wanted to say, but I couldn't find the right words to put in and I can't exactly describe it precisely. But as long as you guys get me,  I guess this is okay right? hahahaha. But anyways, I wish all of you the best in everything in 2015 and achieve everything you guys wanted to achieve. Let's hope we can make it together! Let's strive harder and strive together! Good luck to each and everyone of you! Last but not least, I loveeee you guys! ♥ Fruit loops forever yo! x

♥ To my vampire partner,

Thanks for being there, always. Thanks for making school a better place. Hahahah. Thanks for being there without fail. Thanks for listening to me when I need it and thanks for the trust you've put in me. Thanks for the positive vibes that you never fail to transfer to me whenever I need it. Thanks for being patient and tolerant with me all the time. I know I can be quite ridiculous sometimes LOL. Thanks for putting up with my bullsh*t and still stayed with me despite my weirdness. Thanks for being a great friend and companion. Thanks for everything in 2014. Wish you all the best in 2015 and may you achieve your targets that you've set and aimed to complete. Good luck and have a blessed year ahead! Love you! ♥

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♥ To my Aunt who went through alot together with us this year, thank you so much. It was hard for everyone of us when Grandma left. But we made it through didn't we? All thanks to the support from each other, we made it through and moving on with life. There's nothing like family. Always thankful for you. Love you Aunt Poey!! ♥

♥ To the new friends / friends that I got closer with this year, thank you for making my 2014 amazing! To the people who dislike me, it's okay, I don't even care anyway ;) Thanks everyone for the kind words and encouragement throughout the year. And thanks for believing in me when I don't even believe in myself. Thanks for making my 2014 worth it. 

♥ Overall, 2014 is year full of lessons and I've learnt alot throughout this whole year. It's another different journey. Moving on to 2015, I want to be able to achieve my goals and stop procrastinating. I want to be better and get better. I want to do my very best at everything. 2015, please be good okay! I don't have much to say about 2014 cuz to me, it's not a great year. No wow factor to shout about to be honest. It's dark. But I hope the rest of you out there who's still reading this had a great year. And I hope you guys will have a greater year ahead. All the best in everything in 2015! Be blessed! x 


♥ Goodbye 2014, hello 2015. Old school, but still I'm saying this. 2015, please be better! x

♥ Till then, have a blessed 2015!

♥ Signing off with lots of love,

Karen. x