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♥ My chap 1 ended awesomely, and I'm now in chap 2 of 2012. School's been awesome. :D Everyone there's great too. 1 thing about my new school that makes me happy is, I don't have to pretend that I'm happy. I can be myself there. I don't have to pretend that I'm strong, well, on the outside. But actually I'm tearing apart on the inside. Previously, I looked strong, happy and almost everything. Everything that I showed was, amazingly F A K E. Yes, very fake. It's like living my life to fulfill other's requests. I can be that dumb, isn't it? Well, I just wanted to be honest. 

♥ When I give out my sincerity, I hope you don't repay me with some sh*ts I don't deserve. It's not that I can't care, it's because I don't want to. Knowing of what the results will be, why would I throw myself into that pit right? Well, I'm not that dumb yet okay? It's not that I don't understand and it's not that I don't know. I knew almost everything, I just freaking shut up, so that the immature controversy between us would all die down. 

♥ If you think that I still appreciate you, think twice, after all the things you had done to everyone. If you still think that you are right, then fine, you are. I don't even care if you see this. If you do, please read on and see what I'm saying bout you :D A tongue has no bones, but it can break a heart. True isn't it? Well, aren't you part of the ''breaking people's heart'' family? You speak without using your brains, and still act like you're really brilliant or maybe, wise. But the fact is, you look really like a fool. You criticize people like there's no tomorrow and still think that people still actually like you. Oh well.

♥ In real life, I don't speak like how I blog. Blogging and talking in real life is 2 very different things. I normally use strong words to blog and sometimes harsh words too. Idk if anyone realize that but in real life, I don't use strong and harsh words I used on the blog. I simply can't find other words to describe things on the net, so there you go. :D Idk if I've had any offended readers or anyone that dislike my style of blogging. If I do, I sincerely apologize to anyone of you who are offended :) 

♥ I miss being a child. I miss those innocent and naive days where I don't have to worry, I don't have to care and I don't have to think so much. I suddenly felt so old after re-watching Disney's Tangled the other day. It's like time passes so fast and it's freaking 2012 already! And I'm 16! Well, not official yet, but yes, 16! Speaking about childhood, I clearly remembered that I grew up with crayons, soil, plastic toys, drawing blocks, stumbling blocks, Lego and not iPads, iPhones, iPods and etc. This proves that technology has improved ALOT :)

♥ I was doing homework when Proverbs 17:17 came up on my mind. It says that ''A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.'' My response is I'm really grateful to God that He sent me my bestf, which I guess my readers know who's she already :D I'm really grateful that she stood by me through everything. Through those happy and sad moments, she's the one who backs me up and keep reminding to stand strong and believe in Him. I thank God for sending her to me. Friendship is caused;it does not happen automatically ♥♥

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♥ 2012 is coming. Err, I said a 1000 times already, but I'm not ready yet !! =X School's reopening on the 3rd, ughh, so unfair -.- We started classes earlier, and had holidays later than others. It's so ridiculous lorr. Ishh -.-

♥ 2011 is ending in a day. It's the 31st tmrw. I have so much to say ! Can I fit in all my rants in here ? Well, I will. This is the last time I'm mentioning this. I blog to EXPRESS, not to IMPRESS. Get me ? I seriously don't like people come and tell me, ''You know, you shouldn't post stuffs like this ?'' and etc etc. What ?! Idc if you read or you don't, Idc if you hate me based on what I've blogged and the most important is I don't even care if you think I'm ill mannered. I write the way I want, not under your control. I don't even expect people to read and to love my lil space, cuz I know in this world, not everyone loves who we are. As long as I love myself, that's way more than enough. 

♥ I told you, Idc if you hate me. Haters gonna hate. If I keep wasting my time to care about who hates me, I'd be busy like a bee man ! -.- It's not worth to waste the time on worthless people. If I use the time well, I CAN HAS 8649485585588585 cups of Starbucks already -.- Humans, sometimes we just gotta let go and let karma take over ! :D

♥ I heard bad things on the spot and even saw how bad it is. Don't come pretend in front of me, trying to restore the friendship we had last time. It's never gonna happen, again. No matter how much you do or how much you say, it's never gonna be the same anymore. Sounds so dramatic -.- Well, to the someone I'm talking about, I'm seriously so disappointed with you. You seem so awesome in the front, but you can do something so awful behind, or maybe more to disgusting. Felt so disgusted and annoyed every time I see that someone. =X

♥ Don't act strong, do you know that it's sometimes okay to break down ? Not everyone is always strong. There are times when we should break down and cry out. It's not good to keep it on the inside, it will only hurt you deeper. I'm not the type to keep it inside. Anger, pressure, my best choice to release in Twitter, or maybe me2day. Or maybe scribble on white paper :D

♥ Pictures can speak a 1000 thousand words, but sometimes seeing pictures with people who you dislike, or more like I hate, I feel like tearing the photos into 1000 pieces -.- I can only say that my 2011 went well, it's just that some people just freaking ruined the year !! Alot of problems this year, hmm, much more like relationship problems. 

♥ Don't tell me things like karma don't exist. I always believe in karma. It's better to shut up and live your own life and don't judge people. You never know what people go through. Okay, you might know me, but you NEVER know what I go through. It's not the best to judge. You must look at yourself at the mirror before you can look out of the window. 

♥ Plastic surgery is not a sin. It's other people's life, you cannot control it. You must wonder why I touched on plastic surgery. Guessed you guys saw Leng Yein's video on Youtube. If you didn't, it's attached below. 

♥ I'm on Leng Yein's side. It's her choice to undergo plastic surgery, and it made her happier, so it's none of your business. Don't judge her based on what the medias said. You can never trust the medias, other than Leng Yein. She's the one who undergo the surgery, NOT THE MEDIAS ! If you guys liked her Facebook, you guys had probably saw her journey of plastic surgery. 

♥ She did not point the gun at your head to ask you to undergo plastic surgery. She just answers people's questions / doubts. She's a human after all, please learn to respect people. :)

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♥ 7 days till Christmas. Honestly, for some reason, I don't really anticipate it now =S Idk why, it's just awkward -.- The most important thing is I'm not ready for 2012, not even ready for new school, new classmates, new supervisors and of course, the new class timetable =S This seriously will take some time, Idk how long, but I think it should be really long though =X

♥ I miss ballet. Like seriously. I've never told anyone this but, I was an ex - student of Elizabeth's Ballet Academy located at Sg. Dua. I loved ballet when I was young. I even dreamed of being a graceful ballerina / ballet dancer. I always thought I can become one, but not anymore, when I decided to quit ballet when I was 8. I started attending ballet lessons when I was roughly around 5 or 6. I kinda regret quitting it while I am typing this post. :(

♥ Yeah, I 'think' I'll be okay though. I always remind myself : No matter how hard those challenges are, or how hard it is to go down the path, I still have to face it with courage. I seriously know that running away from it won't bring me any benefit. Even if I run away from it, 该来的还是要来. :)

♥ I'm a daydreamer. I dream almost about everything. But I dream mostly about kpop. LOLLLLLL ! I'll daydream things like when I meet 2NE1 / Bigbang / or any other fandoms I'm a part of, what I will do and etc etc. There's alot to tell. :P

♥ Anyway, I will be editing my previous overdue post and post 1 each day or maybe 2 posts a day, in order to quickly update on my Malacca trip :P Shall end here, till I see you in my next post :D Take care ! :D

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I would really love to run away and hide myself somewhere. It's foolish to run away from your problems but it's definitely not the best way to face it when you're not ready to. I don't request much. I just want people to learn how to respect me and my limits. Hello, I'm not your robot and I definitely don't work for you. Don't always put high hopes on me and get disappointed when I bring you bad news. 

Music is my best friend. Music is the best way I can hide from the world and live on my own world. There are always days that I'd love to put put on my headphones, turn the volume to the max, and just enjoy living in my own world, and temporarily leave the complicated world. 

Anger is something I tried to control, but I can't. My anger raised according to the situation and the people involved in it. I can only say that, I am bad-tempered. I'm not asking you to accept my bad temper. 佛都有火，更何况是人。

Looking up at the sky, searching for stars is also one of my hobby. I look up to the sky whenever mood swings are partying inside me. Looking at the sky, at the stars just make me felt peace in heart. It's like God's always with me :)

I have a secret runway in my heart that I always run towards to. Problems, heartbreaks etc. I'll just run to my 'secret' runway and hide myself in there till I really cool down. It's really obvious for you to realize if I'm in my 'secret' runway. But I'm not telling :D