Pre - Awards Night 2013 feelings .

11：20分 ，小妞我正在寫這篇稿子。本來這篇文章不應該存在，我也不應該寫。可是我不覺得我會後悔，所以這篇文章就誕生了 😉 剛剛聽了讓我非常火滾/痛心的消息所以我真的不懂我到底應該要有什麼感覺。應該是生氣麼？還是傷心？今天真的發生了很多事情，不愉快的事情。早上的事情很離譜！你知道我們偉大的老師說什麼鳥話嗎？她說如果我同學沒辦法今天交出影片的話，她就把我們的話劇取消！把我們的話劇從programme flow裡面拿下來。我說他媽，你難道看不到我們的努力的啊？你是看不見我們的心思嗎？拿下來？！什麼意思啊現在! 你有沒有尊重過我們？你根本就沒有把我們放在眼裡嘛！真的超過分！更過分的在後面。

幸好同學來得及交影片，不然我真的會哭。可是故事還沒完！某人看了影片結果不滿意。還要我們剪！什麼鬼！下午聽到還要剪的時候，我就更加他媽不爽了！簡直就是想K人那一種！

我們幸幸苦苦拍的影片，從22分鐘被剪掉剩下15分鐘也就算了！過分的是，還要剪！我說他媽你自己來剪片好麼？！好笑的是，某人一直為難我們，不滿意這個那個的居然好說了一句，"我只是在預備他們面對現實的工作環境而已。" 我聽你在放屁！分明就是故意刁難！我不是不要尊師重道，而是我覺得你很過分！超過分！我覺得不然你整場就自己solo就好？自己唱，自己跳，自己主持啊反正你很行嘛。我們學生會和其他學生和嘉賓們就坐著看你整場就好。3個小時的秀，你就獨領風騷嘛好不？這樣子你就不會那麼多不滿意了 .___.

當初這句 ，"這是你們的秀，你們做決定就好。" 是他媽誰說的啊？對啊這是我們的秀，那你幹嘛管那麼多？我們做決定的權利呢？死到哪裡去了？你根本就不懂你的那句取消話劇有多傷人。你眼裡，到底還有沒有我們這些工作人員和演員們啊？拍的那麼辛苦，你說取消就取消，你懂classroom 5的演員們會有什麼感覺嗎？難道就因為你的不滿意而我們就要受你的氣嗎？人就是不會覺得他們自己過分。批評也要適可而止！

雖然到最後我們成功保留了話劇，可是我的同學又要受苦了。總之就是一直要剪片就對了！你說煩不煩？火不火？算了吧，面對這種老師簡直就是在挑戰我的界線！真的很不開心，很痛心 :( 總覺得她沒有把我們逼得去死角她就是不會甘願，不會罷手。算了啦，反正希望大家星期四加油吧！💪

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I keep telling my friends and even myself to keep trusting in Him, which I still do. But sometimes it's just so hard when life brings you to a point that breaking down is the only thing you can do. My faith just tend to deteriorate whenever bad things happen. It just doesn't feel right. Trusting in Him can be real hard whenever shits happen. :/

I'm seeing these boys in October! *points below* #ohyeah Can't wait for October to be here already! :D

I shall let things stay the way they are. No matter how hard I try to save it, it just doesn't matter anymore. It's not worth it anyway. The more I care, the hurt I get is always double. My scars will get deeper too. I'm too tired to care anymore. Just fuck it and let it be!

It's okay to keep lying. You can keep the truth to yourself. I'm not interested with your stupid stories. It's okay to conceal the truth from me or whoever. It just doesn't matter anymore. I'm tired of you and your lies. To keep our friendship going, I'll just shut up and move on alright.

School is at it's best state. Great teachers, great friends and great activities. I wouldn't say that it's 100% perfect, but at least better than the previous one. The previous one was total shit, which I've been patient with it for 2 years. 2 freaking years ok?! Please tell me I have good patience. I seriously don't know how I've walked that 2 years hardships without God and family support.

8 days and c o u n t i n g . . . signing off now! Xx ♥